I woke up this morning feeling like poo, its the result of drinking excessive amounts of alcohol, whisky this time cheap nasty Scotch which I really ought to have known better about.
I spent three days without a drink this last week and felt good for it. So it really was a little bit foolish starting again and to be honest I actually prefer sobriety it’s easier on my health and definetly (how do you spell that word?) easier on my wallet. I would prefer to live without this ego thing that I need a drink or three every night. Tea is perfectly good and has the added benefit of being able to walk straight and speak coherently after drinking it.
The best reason is of course giving up to support Jackie in her sobriety journey and the best way to do that is to be sober as well.
Perhaps it’s time to go and get some help.
Other news I seem to have lost the ability to draw and paint, I have lost interest in it at least temporarily, it’s probably a change in direction and has happened before so am not particularly bothered, creativity comes in many forms and it provides an opportunity to sit in a comfy chair be comfortable and give my legs a break. The pond is in a state of flux and is being re-done as is the cloak room ( the place in British homes, where we put our coats) is currently being redecorated, the textured paint is horrible stuff to remove and is not the kind of thing you can sand off. I am pretending the ceiling is not there cause it is rough horrible Artexing, I may just get a handy man to skim it flat and do the other technical stuff
Tea is good for you it relaxes the mind and soul and is beneficial to the body as well. It cleans the blood, helps open the bowels and is proven to fight and destroy free radicals that invade the body.
As was said by British Prime minister William Ewart Gladstone (1809-1898)
“If you are cold, tea will warm you;
if you are too heated, it will cool you;
If you are depressed, it will cheer you;
If you are excited, it will calm you.”
In these slightly annoying times where our elected representatives have asked us to stay home, it is all the more important to relax, chill out and take things as calmly as possible. Some of us will laugh and others will be gnashing their teeth worrying about work and other things that are out of their control. If you are doing the latter two relax and put the kettle on, make a pot of tea and have a mug of the stuff. Alcohol will not help so much it will give you a headache and perhaps start arguments and stuff you do not need right now.
I just wanted to write I am missing J like fuck right now, she is in NY state which is on virtual lock down, I know she is safe and in hospital she is having MH issues and that is the best place for her right now, she is safe. x
Today like yesterday the sun is out and it is quite warm, could you imagine being stuck at home and pissing with rain outside? I hope you have sunshine where you are and you are all safe, as tiresome as it maybe it is better to stay home unless you really do have to go out, I have to go get a calling card later on so I can call J up later. Whether that is important enough for the authorities I do not care, it is important for J, Plus I am low on Tea. I did some painting last night and shall be postings stuff on here at some juncture. After this I shall potter around in the garden and do some stuff there.
One last thing My exes surname is Corona, like this bug she is contagious and not good for my health, this provides a good laugh when I feel the anxiety creeping up on me. have you tried Corona beer? It tastes like piss, I would far rather drink tea with a spoon of honey and no milk.